dont give up

wow.

2005-10-04T22:06:51Z

amistill chill: i want a tube top ahahaha

butiamthekiller @ 2005-03-24T15:23:00

2005-03-24T20:25:25Z

butiamthekiller @ 2005-03-17T23:32:00

2005-03-18T04:38:20Z

im barley alive

my heart just sunk at the thought
of where youre at..
youre not with me & im losing hold on the center of my life
its turning black...
"i feel alone in this fucking city"
miles of separation with only a phone to let you know
its killing me to stay so far away

but i cant go back to that fucking place
where i gave up my dreams
and i broke myself for acceptance

but it never embraced me

and it crushes me to know
every word i wrote to you
never saw the light of day
would it have changed a thing?
could it have taken away our pain?
it was a lesson learned & it was one i could have done without
i cant live with a broken heart
when its the one thing we share
a million miles away so i'll keep waiting..

i'll be waiting right here

butiamthekiller @ 2005-03-14T05:48:00

2005-03-14T10:54:47Z

so deep that it didnt even bleed
& catch me off guard

respond even if you think i hate you, im bored

2005-03-12T05:17:07Z

im late

[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you.

[02] I will then tell you what song/BAND reminds me of you.

[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

[04] Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.

[05] Put this in your journal

butiamthekiller @ 2005-03-06T04:48:00

2005-03-06T09:50:10Z

one day i want to have a boyfriend who is okay with that fact that i am his girlfriend & thats it.

I SAW YOUR BUTT

2005-03-05T18:17:34Z

well georgia was fun

we all saw sarah's pusson. evan lifted up her skirt and some one snapped a pic.

* 10 inches wide
* teeth

butiamthekiller @ 2005-02-18T13:10:00

2005-02-18T18:10:53Z

i hope its something worth the waiting, cause its the only time that i ever feel real

i got a job

2005-01-24T00:46:43Z

i have to change my lj.
yoraebeez

sarah makes cats purr

butiamthekiller @ 2005-01-19T01:27:00

2005-01-19T06:36:04Z

if youre callin bout my heart, its still yours. i shouldve listened to it a little more. then it wouldn't have taken me so long to know where i belong & by the way, boy this is no machine youre talkin to. cant you tell, this is austin & i still love you

if my tears had any power i would cry

2005-01-13T06:26:57Z

i talked to guidance and the ged thing wont work cause im under 18, but shit is awesome because im taking an extra class after school every day so i can be a senior in december.

& then later when i walk i want to see everyone there.

its going to be sweet because im going to graduate, walk, college, get rich, & then buy a huge fucking place to live so all of you assholes have somewhere to live.

other wise everything is shit.

"weve been to the edge & we know what its like to wanna die
& thats something we wont glorify"

pajama time

butiamthekiller @ 2005-01-10T18:36:00

2005-01-10T05:50:12Z

you don't want to know why i can't quite talk
you don't want to know what makes my heart stop

butiamthekiller @ 2005-01-05T13:38:00

2005-01-05T01:22:22Z

[Describe your]

x. [Wallet] empty
x. [What do you want done with your body when you die] cremated and sprinkeled in sarahs hair
x. [How many songs do you have on your computer?] i couldent even figure out my own ipodular
x. [Last movie you saw] garden state
x. [Last thing you had to eat] worms
x. [How many fillings do you have?] its like i dont even have teeth any more. i brush my fillings.
x. [Describe your style in one word] jocked (mostly by raccoons &
the large)

[ Your Friends ] are jammin

x. [Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches?] when i wake up
x. [Do you wash your hair less than once a week?] more like never

[favorite]

x. [Radio] the country stations jams esp. when your cd player has had AN in it for 50 years.

[this or that]

x. [Coke/Pepsi] PEPSI
x. [Day/night] night

im bored lets do something
call my new cell (904.911.1765)

guys its gunna be ok :)

2005-01-04T05:20:15Z

ill be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
in an open tab when your judgements on the brink.
ill be the phonograph that plays your favorite
albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep..
ill be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you
you wontt have to strain to look into my eyes.
ill be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat

with the collar up so you won't catch a cold..

i want to take you far from the cynics int his town
and kiss you on the mouth
we'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
start a brand new colony
where everything will change,
we'll give ourselves new names- identities erased
the sun will heat the grounds
under our bare feet in this brand new colony

everything will change

butiamthekiller @ 2004-12-22T00:28:00

2004-12-22T05:52:58Z

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. rae
2. rae bear
3. raerae - emily& lauren

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. a sarah
2. b wears
3. c glasses

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. katie
1. sarah
2.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. getting old
2. cops
3. fat people

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. im not tellin cause you would never believe me
2.
3.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists (at the moment)):
1. interpol
2.
3.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i miss my dog
2. i have big eyes
3. im happy

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. clothes (pants esp.)
2. hugging ability
3. the feeling they give you

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. 2. 3.

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. mortimor
2. judge lee
3. baby fucker

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. fix this
2.
3.

butiamthekiller @ 2004-12-21T00:57:00

2004-12-21T06:04:47Z

everyones going to bed alone tonight.

99.1 froggy fm

2004-12-16T02:22:09Z

i walk alone
i try alone
ill wait for you- don't want to die alone
so please come home soon

butiamthekiller @ 2004-12-14T23:22:00

2004-12-15T04:27:42Z

wolverine was sad and it made him mad

butiamthekiller @ 2004-12-01T02:20:00

2004-12-01T07:28:46Z

SARAH CAN SEE RATER R MOVIES
happy birthday sarah!! go to hell!!

ruvyouh!

livejournal knows damnit.

1st time :


sushi is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

2nd time :


risk is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

i swear on memas life i didnt change any of that.
great christ click that link and take this shit.

oh &

i had this dream that i was a mom and it was shitty because my son died while he was fishing, i woke up crying but then in less than 10 minutes i felt better than i ever have in my entire life. i love you.

hey i wanted it all and thats what i got

2004-11-23T07:08:50Z

some of you all may not know, but one of the most incredible people in the world is about to have a birthday. if you cant figure out what to get sarah some suggestions might be anything along the lines of say maybe a cat to a nice new glasses carrying case. but forreal the fucker deserves the world & everything in it but me and katie are poor so someone please hook her up.

also today sarah's sister kelly was supposed to have her baby, i haven't talked to her but i hope everything ran smoothly. if someone talks to her let me know.

aaaaaaaanddd...

i wanna go see manatees.

whenever im alone with you- you make me feel like i am home again
whenever im alone with you- you make me feel like i am whole again

however far away i will always love you
however long i stay i will always love you
whatever words i say i will always love you

i will always love you

p.s. i don't have blood in my system, its really spider bait. and it works.

p.p.s. KATIE AND BRIAN ARE DATING. this is beautiful!!

HEY FUCK YOU

2004-11-21T05:48:04Z

TONIGHT WAS THE BONG!

cause i swear out there aint where you outta be.

2004-11-18T20:16:29Z

it would be kewl if someone could let me borrow like 4,000 dollarz.

guhh thangths!

1 more speeding ticket & i die.

butiamthekiller @ 2004-11-11T20:17:00

2004-11-12T03:28:35Z

the only thing worse than loosing the one thing that you love
is having the one thing that you love
turn into everything that you fucking hate

it all just falls apart from here
and yes i love you
and now its all falling apart

and yes i love you

and the pieces come crashing down on me

drews a creep.

2004-11-09T21:50:04Z

happy birthday bryan bonez.

deletion

2004-07-13T04:27:55Z

GOODBYE BITCHES!